Hope And Fear

Taqwa? Am i one of the "muttaqin"?

I dont think so and i am sure i'm too far from it

I am a loser, i cant keep things consistently 

What do i get from fasting?

Just thirsty, tired and hungry?

Just that?

I told myself "I am a Mujahid"

Mujahid is not a weak person

Jihad is her clothes, Ikhlas is her actions

Everyone can be the ignorant 

No effort is needed

Not even the single tiny one 

But to be a good servant of Allah, not everyone can do that

It takes a lot of efforts and only Paradise can pay them

always remember what Imam Ghazali said

“‎If you forget Allah, He will make you forget yourself. If you forget yourself, how can you know anything?”

Naudzubillahiminzalik

Allah, You're my strength

Please dont leave me

I need you in my life

More than anything else

Please.

*everything in dunya won't last,so don't get too attached*
NOTE TO SELF